If I believe there is a kind of wisdom inside me,
and also believe that this idea is what
keeps me closed to said wisdom,
then if I truly want to wake up
won’t I need to stop thinking of reasons for why
I may or may not be able to awaken?
That’s the question I wanted to ask you and didn’t,
because I feared you’d say something like
you’re never closed to wisdom, because
uncertainty and being a shit and doubting
everything is that wisdom too. But mostly
I was just afraid you’d say you didn’t know
and that that would be the end of the conversation.